I was there the night it happened. A little less than 3 weeks ago. I don't have an appetite, I'm having trouble sleeping because I have nightmares, but all I want to do is lay in bed all day. I can't function at work. I'm pushing people away. They're telling me things like I'm scaring them or they're worried about me. My ex has even been in contact with me even though she doesn't want anything to do with me. I've been getting blackout drunk and acting like a total shithead. What in the fuck am I supposed to do? I just want a blank prescription pad and a one way ticket to someplace where nobody knows me.